She had A mind that had already plan her destiny, she was tired of being nice, she planned to become wicked, to party all night and be disrespectful all day.
She planned to go clubs, manipulate guys and Start back drinking. She had it all planned out.
But Jesus had other things planned out for her This is part of my story.
When i said Yes! to JESUS, it was on a sunny sunday afternoon during an afternoon church service.
I entered as someone embraced to hatred, anger,bitterness, lover of the world and worldly things, filled with unforgiveness and a mind of revenge. Lover of alcohol (i called it my milk)
The day i said yes to Jesus was in a church. In France, Bordeaux. I didn’t plan for it to be that day, nor that way. It was my first time going there anyways.
I expected it to be like every other time when i went to church, sleepy sermons(excuse my language, that’s how i used to feel) and hypocrites all around. But no that place was filled with the Holy spirit. But why me, why that day?
I was sittings right at the back as usual, accompanied by my family and friends(the people who invited us).
My disable little heart cousin and my disable sister was crying so they brought them up to pray for them, then my other sister began to cry because the younger ones were crying.
A nice lady told me to bring her up as well, i didn’t want to at all.
Why should i, i hated being in big crowds having people look at me, that’s actually one of the many reasons i didn’t want to get baptized, for me it was a spectacle, just being dropped in water and people infront of you making noise clapping, gazzing at you.
Few minuites before saying yes to Jesus i was walking my sister up at the front(the altar) just to support her and my family that was all up crying.
I was kind of upset i find they were making a scene, few minuites of being hard hearted and judgemental , the Holy spirit brought me down to my knees.
And there i was, i started feeling strange like weak and hot at the same time, i thought to myself probably my lady problems is on her way, but then my legs begans to tremble i couldn’t understand what was going on nor could i resist it.
i closed my eyes and its like i was the only one in the room, everything was completely black not even a glimse of light were found. And boom i found myself trembling, screaming and crying down on my knees. It’s like the Lord was telling me it’s time!
What’s happening, why me! i thought to myself
I was and I’m still sure it was the Holy spirit because i disliked and still dislike making scenes and especially crying infront of people, what happened was stronger that me. That no matter how hard my heart was i just couldn’t resist the Lord’s presence and power.
Few minuits later a lady helped me stand up, i was in complete shock! i couldn’t believe what just happened.
My family, especially my sisters were looking at me, asking me if I’m okay, and i was there like “I’m fine” , i wasn’t in the mood to speak to anyone.
On our way home while i was on the tram, i kept thinking of what just happened, my life and what do i really want in life.
That was the second i said yes to Jesus. Yes okay you made your point i truly believe that God exists and no heart is too hard for Him to soften, touch and speak to.
After what happened to me there was no way i could remain the same way and continue thinking and living the way i used to. I wanted more, so i said Yes Jesus, but please help me, guide me and show me more.
The moment you really meet or feel Jesus’s presence and find proof of His existence there’s no way you can go back living the same way.